But how many songs have I released during this decade-long period of time?
That’s right. Seven songs. I have produced one album consisting of seven songs.
But, wait, you say – why do you only have seven songs out there – in the big wide world – when you say you have written hundreds of songs?
Welcome to my artistically challenged life.
No, really. I’ve rarely been happy with my music life. Despite the gifts I have to write music.
Live your life as a demo
And it’s ONLY very recently that I realize what I’ve been doing wrong ALL these years … I have been living my life as a finished album, and NOT as a demo.
Would you do me a favour and read that last sentence again? Because you might think that I got the order wrong.
‘Whoa, Rohan, I think you mean: you’ve been living your life as a DEMO, when you should be living your life as a finished album.’
I appreciate your guidance, but you’re wrong. That’s EXACTLY what I mean.
You see, when I listen to my demos on my hard drive (touch wood, I still have 95 per cent of my demos – only losing about 5 per cent to the great hard drive crash of 2009) my demo music is vibrant … and real … and alive.
Your demos are alive
Why? Because I had just created it, or was STILL creating it, when I recorded it on my iPhone, or on my mp3 player …
That’s the music I should have been releasing to the world all along, NOT holding on to them, scrubbing them, and scrubbing them, and scrubbing them until they were red and raw, and I was exhausted.
Those finished songs on my album are good – but they’re NOTHING on the demos.
My demos are alive.
Zap, crackle and pop
And I’ll tell you what, I will make a stone-cold, stare-you-in-the-eyes bet that your BEST material are demos, too … not the stuff that you deem fit for publishing.
Because the stuff you publish is safe … and acceptable.
It’s acceptable because that’s how you think you can be accepted in life … by making acceptable content. By having acceptable thoughts.
Listen, do me a favour? Find a mirror, get real close, and whisper, ‘The real me is in my demos.’ Then see how that made you feel.
I guarantee that the feeling you get will be exactly the same for those you share your demos with.
I guarantee they will instantly connect to the zap, crackle, pop and energy in your art.
Because life is in the spark – not the fire.